disappointment

second party in two nights! but as the designated driver.. and having only 1.5hrs at the party.. i had one beer (that was gross), chilled, left. first "house party" with tons of random people.. and i did not enjoy it. it was just about the same as how i imagined it in my head. casual drinking? yes. chugging beer, taking shots, etc.. not my thing.

the rest of today leading up to that? got a new phone (pantech matrix).. that was nice. spent the afternoon trying to figure it out. adam n' viv called, met up with them at guppy's. ended up going to CVS to show viv the magical sally hansen nail pens, ended up with some more stuff (went looking for a new blush for my mom--she's been using the same one for more than 10 years). sat around in our cars. they came over to my house, hannah was acting weird (my dog--barked at adam and wouldn't stop). had to put her outside, was sort of weirded out. cut adam's hair. they left, noah came home.. went to go eat PHO.. got a text about the party.. was trying to reach beth but her phone was off. saw bethany at the restaurant, thanks to her bro haha. got home. was supposed to shoot an asgn but model bailed (called/texted but no response. wtf). DISAPPOINTMENT. decided to go to the party. stace/beth came over, chilled. ended up taking two MORE people (james n' kevin) who were cool anyways :) so it was ok. got to the party, saw some people from high school. pretty cool. and yes, etc. the rest was fairly boring (sorry to say) and not much happened anyways.

beth had to be home by 1:00 so we left around 12:30.. didn't get to see stace play beer pong. garage smelled like smoke anyways, ugh. talked on the way home, that was nice. talked about disappointment, parties, etc. not totally related, if you were wondering. hope your parents weren't mad about you being 8min late! if they are, i apologize for keeping you in my car and forcing you to listen to my babble, haha ;)

NOTE
i absolutely hate disappointment.
i hate disappointing people, i hate people disappointing me.
it's up there with my dislike of "jealousy".
and today was heading towards disappointment as the day went on.

but i get to see katie tomorrow.. and 3 of my girls :) chillin' for cuzzo's birthday (on tuesday)! and shooting some~ thanks girls for helpin' me out with my model situation! hahah :)

ah.. well. guess time to go to sleep.