024. housing frustrations

okay, so there's a room for 475/month 475deposit. the fact is that it's a shared room. sort of annoyed by that, but whatever.. most likely won't be staying there very much if the future is a repeat of how bryant and i are now (me being over at his house forever). 

the other room that was 530/month 500deposit that i was supposed to see friday.. WAS GIVEN AWAY. freaking aye. if i saw it today, then i would've gotten it too. but noo, i had class. which i skipped.. and.. magically forgot to go look at the house instead. so pissed, mostly at myself. but you can't do anything about it, i can't do anything about it, no use getting upset. i think it's just the estrogen. 

saw a couple more places, and emailed out.. hope they reply. one i wasn't sure if it was a single room or shared.. and the other is single, but in a house w/ a family of 3.. but they have dogs. so i guess it's alright. i don't know, we'll have to see. i really like how friendly this laura girl is (the 475/475 one) so.. i might end up being there. not all together too bad. hope i get along with her room mates. mate. yea. 

just sort of annoyed with not being able to get the 530/500 room. but i mean, it happens. i don't know why i'm so upset about it. i think i'm just tired.. this morning i woke up really irritated. took me til 4am to get my stuff done, then bryant wouldn't wake up to do his, so that's fine.. then.. had to wake up early to get our stuff in to the cota hub (not cota ftp that we can do at home, the cota hub.. meaning we had to go downtown and to the campus). so i was really annoyed. my whole body was sore and i just felt like shit. and i sort of took it out on bryant a little :\ and i felt bad so i felt even worse about that. then we got back and i couldn't sleep, i forgot why. oh i was doing stuff.. and.. yea. i don't remember besides making a posing book which didn't take that long in the first place. went to class, still felt like shit. had a "deconstruct faces" demo, to see what kind of lighting looks best on what person.. i ended up being a model because my face is "interesting". i think it was mostly because i made some comment abut my eyes being "long" (something about head positions) and whatnot. apparently my face is symmetrical (but bryant thinks my left eye is smaller) and that i have "beautiful eyes" and "beautiful cheek bones when i smile" but if he was photographing me (the teacher) he would stick to subtle expressions 'cause i swallow my eyes when i smile (go figure). blahblah. made me feel a little better about my face, self esteem boosts are always nice. it's different getting it from a photo teacher (working professional), someone who doesn't know me, than getting an opinion from one of you guys (not that your guys' opinion is any less). it's just different, you know? anyway, i decided to skip english 'cause in the event that i WAS getting sick, i didn't want to be sick over the weekend. so better to skip today than strain myself and possibly be sick for longer, yea? so then we got home and.. i don't remember what we did but i know i ended up falling asleep, then i went back home to shower.. came back.. and.. yes. found out about the apartment being given away and am just.. blah :\ at least i feel better. and my period's almost gone. and i get to photograph stace and andy this weekend, so that'll be fun. it'll be like.. engagement shot practice, ha ha. 

just tired. i hope one of these housing options work. we'll have to see about the one i'm seeing tomorrow 475/475. bummed. but whatever. i'll get over it :|